V Day: Past, Present, Future

February 13, 2007 at 7:10 am | In love, sentimentality | 20 Comments

My first Valentine was probably my Mom. She was (is) so great about celebrating and making sure we felt loved. My Mom would decorate the table, cook a nice dinner and give us individual mini-boxes of See’s Candy. Awww.

I’m sure I’ve had boyfriends on Valentine’s Day but I can only remember two specific V Days. . .

Scooter, the one who married the girl he started dating right after we broke up. That being his second marriage. The one I am convinced was closeted. He’s also the one who sent me three days of flowers on the Valentine’s Day we were together. All the women in my office were jealous. Except the one who was allergic to the Stargazers. She just wanted me to take them home.

I met Dumpling on Valentine’s Day. He was a friend of Jenny Two Times and she invited him along to sushi. Later at the bar when he went to the restroom Jenny conspiratorially asked me, “Are you flirting with him?!” Um… maybe? Ok. Yes. Yes I was. It wasn’t until a couple of weeks into our new friendship that it hit me: I want to be around him all the time. It’s pretty rare that I feel that way.

I’d like to feel that way again someday.

But oddly enough, I’m at peace with being single. I am not embarrassed about it. I’m not lonely. Sure, I’d like to have someone to shower with affection, to make a mix cd for, to have ask about my day so I can share my fuckedupness with him, but I’m not sad that I don’t have a Valentine. I know when I do find love again, it’s going to be pretty awesome. Like really, really great. Like I won’t be able to stop grinning kind of great.

So for now? I’m just going to keep on working on myself and maybe, just maybe, by the time he shows up I’ll be ready.

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I think you should make Finn your valentine and buy him a cute red outfit. Babies dressed up for holidays always slay me with their cuteness.

Comment by Jessie — February 13, 2007 #
Isn’t it great to find those pieces of happiness that allow you to have faith in what’s to come? I really am beginning to just love that.
As for Valentine’s Day, I really have never gotten into it. I’d rather have something romantic on a random Tuesday in, say, September than a day where it’s “supposed” to happen. Not that I’d turn flowers down, they’re way too beautiful for that. :)

Comment by justrun — February 13, 2007 #
I’m trying to use yoru blog as a template of what I need to do different in my life, positive attitude about being single, etc.

In all honestly, it’s not so much about being single on Vday, it’s about being single in general.

I want someone who understands me, makes me laugh, laughs at/with me, just takes time to spend with me.

And I agree: have a date with Finn. It’ll be the best one you’ve ever had… trust me on this. :)

Comment by Traveling Chica — February 13, 2007 #
I tell myself I’m ok with being single… but I think I’m pretty much lying to myself. Still, as far as dellusions go it’s not too bad!

Comment by Bre — February 13, 2007 #
Wow, new digs, and I’ve only been away for a few days! Nice. I know what you mean about V Day. I usually detest the day. Course, if I had a meaningful other, that might change.

Comment by Karl — February 13, 2007 #
Those are great memories Sizz! I have some really bad memories of V-Day, really bad. So I normally just ignore the day :)

Comment by alissa — February 13, 2007 #
I will always be your Valentine… come rain or shine! xo

Comment by Bob — February 13, 2007 #
I think I’d almost rather be single on VD. No pressure to be thoughtful/sweet/romantic and yet still do something different than the year before :)

But this attending weddings alone. And going to family holiday gatherings alone. Yeah, that’s got to stop.

Comment by Bone — February 13, 2007 #
I’m another contented V-Day single, and I see nothing wrong with it. I’ve actually always been confused about the animosity toward the silly little holiday…either way, I’m going to enjoy all of the pink and red I see floating around.

Comment by nicalyse — February 13, 2007 #
wow…i forgot about that dinner…
nice memory :)

and you will feel that again. guarantee it.

Comment by jenny — February 13, 2007 #
Sounds like a good plan. I’m a content v-day single too, having had v-days with someone in the past that were more frustrating than without.

The fact my dad still renews my AAA membership each year for v-day is more than enough to make me happy.

Comment by claire — February 13, 2007 #
Pbbbbst – come join my new version of V-Day! You’d think I was single, LOL.

Comment by Hilly — February 13, 2007 #
Hi – I’ve seen your comments on JustRun’s blog for a while now and thought I’d stop by.

For what it’s worth, I like the brown-on-brown look…

Happy VDay.

Comment by Josh Morphew — February 13, 2007 #
Ahhh, Cupcake…

That was the only Valentine’s Day I can ever remember…

xoxo =)

Comment by Mr. Rodacre — February 13, 2007 #
Dude…I’m so with ya. I’m fine with nothing. What is making me nuts are the well-meaning friends showering me with affection– it feels like a sympathy screw– without the penetration.

Comment by esmerelda — February 13, 2007 #
The only time I had a boyfriend on Valentine’s Day…it totally sucked.

Sorry to be Debbie Downer, but the lower my expectations, the higher the probability of a happy surprise, right?

Right?

Comment by Dawn — February 14, 2007 #
you can be my valentine! my children will be stuck to my husband like glue and i’ll be drinking in the corner. just because i have someone doesn’t mean it’s all flowers and candy.

Comment by gorillabuns — February 14, 2007 #
My mum was my first valentine too.

And I’m not even from Tennesee haha

Happy Valentines Day :)

Comment by Scaramouche Jones — February 14, 2007 #
My mom always helps me celebrate too! This year, she sent me a V-Day suitcase (long story, but really cute…trust me). It’s also the birthday of one of my best friends, which makes it a cool day for me. The only one I can really remember, though, is the year I got anonymous flowers. It still bugs me that I don’t know who sent them!

Comment by sandra — February 14, 2007 #
You are not embarrased about being single? What a weird statement. I know of no single person who IS embarrassed. I’ve been single going on 8 years now and I realized how important I love my independence and how much I appreciate my inner strength, my self worth and I finally realized I do not need a man to make my life complete. I am also overweight, I eat sugar and I frequently suffer from extreme high anxiety but I will never be embarrassed about choosing to be single on purpose.

Comment by Amy — February 17, 2007 #