Reach Out From the Inside

January 25, 2008 at 8:25 am | In drivel, everyday frustrations, mountain out of a molehill, my neurosis, processing | 45 Comments

I woke up in a funk. I over-snoozed and after 45 minutes of being awake, I still don’t feel like myself. I was feeling so good all week and now this. Where did this mood come from?

It really bugs me when I can’t figure out the source of my bad mood. I know sometimes you have to just let time sort it out for you. I’ve been trying to embrace the Zen-ness of that but as a control-freak over-thinker, it’s no easy feat. Throw into that mix my impatience with myself and we’ve got a mess up in this mind of mine.

Any of these could be the reason or the combo pack of reasons why I’m all down in the dumper today:

-nostalgia

-stress

-work boredom

-ch-ch-changes on the horizon

-birth control messing with my emotional balance

-lack of exercise

-embarrassment over sharing TMI about my “O” situation in yesterday’s post

-trying to be a girlfriend after years of not being a girlfriend

-feeling disconnected from myself, my heart

-not enough sleep from staying up too late watching old episodes of Grey’s Anatomy

-over-attachment to blogging

-worry about a friend

This too shall pass, as they say. Right?

“Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity./Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be./But you’re on to me and all over me./You loved me ’cause I’m fragile./When I thought that I was strong./But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone. . .” – Gravity, Sara Bareilles

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It really gets to me when I dont know why I am not in a good mood.

I think it happens from the culmination of a bunch of little things.

Hope you feel better Sizzzzzz.

Comment by Scotty — January 25, 2008 #
*hug*

Comment by Fella — January 25, 2008 #
Sorry to read that you’ve got the blues (not the Kraft mac-n-cheese kind either). Gawd that was corny, but I’m leaving it in anyway :-P I understand what its like to be on a high and then quickly plummet and wonder “HTF did I GET here?”. I internalize so very much… *sigh*… anywho… keep your chin up, girlie and keep repeating “This too shall pass… This too shall pass…” Tight hugs from the Ohio Blog-Stalker

Comment by Melissa from Ohio — January 25, 2008 #
It will pass. When this happens to me, I remind myself to have a bad “moment” not a bad day. It’s almost the weekend!

Comment by alissa — January 25, 2008 #
Yup. It always does. Thats what helps me get through them – that is when I am sane enough to remind myself of that.

Comment by anne — January 25, 2008 #
I feel ya today…I’m in a funk, too. It sounds like you’ve got a lot on your plate, and are maybe feeling a little overwhelmed? But you’re right, “this to shall pass.”

Comment by punchlinewalking — January 25, 2008 #
oooohhh…it’s amazing what you see when you actually click over to comment. PURTY page.

Don’t worry about the over sharing on the O situation. We ALL have our own version of O situations.

:)

Comment by paisley — January 25, 2008 #
Not that you overshared, but you THOUGHT that you overshared. You know what I mean…

Comment by paisley — January 25, 2008 #
I think it’s the time of year as much as anything. A colleague and I were talking yesterday about the fact that this past Monday is statisically the most likely day for people to call off work sick. The holidays are over by a month and it’s a long time before there’s another festive occasion. Between that and the cold and the lack of sun, it’s no wonder there’s a whole lot of “just not quite right-ness” going on.

Comment by Sarah — January 25, 2008 #
My Vote is vulnerability and embarrassment over exposure, yesterday. We love you, as-is. It’s okay.

Get mad, punch a pillow, eat some chocolate diet pudding. .
I don;t know anything else, but waiting it out. *hugs*

Comment by Bully — January 25, 2008 #
i’ve learned to just let my bad days, come and go w/out too much worry because i know, they will be gone the next day… if the mood is not, however, that’s usually when i begin to wonder if something more serious is wrong… you listed a lot of things that could contribute to your mood but i can make you feel better on at least one of them… i, too, have only had one big ‘o’ in my life and it was with a guy i didn’t even want to be with (plus he was 5-years younger than me)… i’ve had many’a guy try but i’m just not built that way, such is life…

cheer up! it’s friday! :o)

Comment by jodi — January 25, 2008 #
Sending warm hugs your way. Hope you feel cheerier soon!

Comment by Jen — January 25, 2008 #
Thanks for the nice comments about my grandpa. It sounds like you are having one of “those days”. Me too.

This will pass. Chin up, buttercup.

Comment by hotpinksox — January 25, 2008 #
I say, embrace feeling crappy, wallow a bit, and then you’ll really get over it. Sometimes, you really do just wake up on the wrong side of the bed!

Comment by sandra — January 25, 2008 #
Sharin’ the funkland groove with you today…not sure why either…just not “feeling” 100%. Hugs.

Comment by Foo — January 25, 2008 #
I hate bad moods that seem to hit out of nowhere! Hope you overcome it soon!!!

Comment by Z — January 25, 2008 #
For me, not enough sleep is usually the culprit of many other bad things/feelings/emotions. A good nap or good night’s sleep helps a lot.

Don’t be embarrased by the O sitch. We’re not here to judge.

I hope you get through it quickly and enjoy your weekend!

Comment by Melissa — January 25, 2008 #
‘Friday funk-its’ is a feeling I get when the week of work is almost over and I can get back to doing stuff I want to do.

And yeah, I’m gonna say what everyone else says about your ‘O’ comment, but not because I am feeling like a conformist. It’s NEVER TMI sizz…never at all, ever. I don’t think there’s anything you could say to stop me from reading your blog~so there, you’re stuck with all of us stalkers. Deal!

Comment by Tobiwan — January 25, 2008 #
I feel like Sara Bareilles crawled up inside my head sometimes. Brilliant.

Here’s to a funk-free weekend :)

Comment by La — January 25, 2008 #
If it helps, I think you’re awesome. :)

Comment by Kristin — January 25, 2008 #
We’re all entitled to our bad moods I think. Especially the b.c. hormones can really screw with you, that’s why I stopped taking them. I was on depo provera and after a while, it totally killed my libido and made me an anxious beast.

Comment by Fluffycat — January 25, 2008 #
I agree with Scotty – it’s all these little things that build up. For me, it is usually the whole day or a large chunk of it. I isolate myself as much as possible, then do something relaxing AS SOON as I get home!

Comment by kilax — January 25, 2008 #
I have a friend that when this happens we call each other and giggle and then start yelling “PEP….PEP….gotta get your PEP”. It is really hard to not crack up, tell your friend they are crazy and hang up the phone smiling.

Ahem….Sizzle…PEP…PEP….gotta get your PEP!!!!

I’m smiling, I hope you are…maybe a little??

Comment by Skyzi — January 25, 2008 #
First thing that popped into my head when reading this…

“Sizzle snoozed”

HAHAHAHAAH

Comment by so@24 — January 25, 2008 #
i have this theory that birth-control pills make you randomly glum for no reason. i hate it when it happens. and it happens every single month – and not just once sometimes!

i hope you feel better soon *hugs*

Comment by Ys — January 25, 2008 #
Man – I think it’s going around – check out my post too – I hope that you get to feeling better soon!! Big hugs to you!

Comment by Princess Extraoridinaire — January 25, 2008 #
Awwww, Sizzle. At least these are very normal stressers, which too will pass. Sounds like you need a weekend where you can sleep in, slouch around and do what suits Sizzle best. Good thing it’s a Friday!

Comment by Nilsa S. — January 25, 2008 #
I think it’s the January’s.

The weather’s kinda crappy, you want something better to come along, no one is getting out and about enough, etc., etc., etc.

At least, that’s what I’m blaming it on :)

Comment by TC — January 25, 2008 #
I think today’s theme is oversleeping as I did the same today. Perhaps I was avoiding going into work as I knew it would be absolutely crazy today. It always is when it rains. *sigh*

Comment by Dagny — January 25, 2008 #
Hope your funk is lifting! Go out and treat yourself to some sushi with the Fella tonight!

Comment by rosie — January 25, 2008 #
I agree with Princess Ex–that this is going around. Sizzle, sounds as though you have a little extra stress hanging over you and the winter doldrums. Hope both will be over soon for you.

Comment by Diane Mandy — January 25, 2008 #
As fun as nostalgia can usually be, it can truly fuck you up. I know from firsthand experience. I hope you figure out whatever is bugging you and squash the everloving crap out of it. A depressed Sizz is no fun!

Comment by kapgar — January 25, 2008 #
I have a refrigerator magnet of a slightly crazed but perfectly coiffed housewife that says “Being bitchy and unpredictable is all part of my charm.”

I live that!

Honestly, sizzle, if we knew why we had bad moods, we wouldn’t have them.

And, how would we ever recognize a good mood?

Go with the bad, hon. Let it wash over you, have a mini-pity party, scream at somebody, then move on.

Works for me.

Comment by Mayberry Magpie — January 25, 2008 #
now i feel bad that i asked the TMI question.

hope you feel better soon!

Comment by gorillabuns — January 25, 2008 #
Hope you are feeling better now. Love the new color. I have a very similar streak.

Comment by kim — January 25, 2008 #
I feel you today with the funk! Hope it clears by tomorrow!

Comment by punchlinewalking — January 25, 2008 #
I hope you are feeling better… I know what makes me feel that way… but I think you are getting to have sex!

Comment by Maman — January 25, 2008 #
I woke up feeling ultra crappy this morning, and now I’ve got a sore throat so I think I’m coming down with something.

Hope you feel better soon! At least it’s the weekend.

Comment by maja — January 25, 2008 #
Looks like we are in a funk together girl! Hopefully tomorrow we can be in a good mood together!

Comment by NerdGirl — January 25, 2008 #
No worries. It makes me feel better when people share things. I feel like I overshare most of the time. (FYI, I didn’t think you were oversharing. Why is it awkward to say anything about that? No matter what I type, it feels like the wrong thing. Gah. You know what I mean.)

The Januaries are going strong. And I also empathize about the “getting used to being a girlfriend” thing. Isn’t it crazy how that can cause a major identity crisis, even though you wouldn’t have it any other way? Weird.

Comment by abbersnail — January 25, 2008 #
It probably is a little bit of this and a little bit of that. I hope you feel better girlie. You know, some fro-yo might help just a tiny tad ;)

Comment by emmaenlighted — January 26, 2008 #
Over-attachment to blogging? That exists? Oh great. A big HUG to you, my friend. May the weekend bring calm. :)

Comment by justrun — January 26, 2008 #
I have those days too. We all do. Hope today is better!

Comment by Angella — January 26, 2008 #
I am feeling down because it’s freaking WINTER. You have a bunch of better reasons than me. Except the O thing, THAT was awesome!

Comment by Aimee Greeblemonkey — January 26, 2008 #
hope you’re feeling better today!

Comment by claire — January 26, 2008 #