Brand New Day

I think I am ready to face today.

The weekend was what I needed. Lots of sleep. Spending time with the fella. Laughter. Hanging out with friends. A little retail therapy. Being reminded that I am cared for. Remembering, again, that even when things appear to be falling apart people are there invisibly holding me up.

Here’s a list of things that were going wrong/stressing me out to the point of mini-meltdown:

  • still figuring out finances due to pay schedule change
  • having to get an advance to cover bills
  • car needing a tune up
  • speeding ticket
  • my cell service getting suspended for an overdue balance
  • not getting nearly enough sleep
  • saying no to doing activities because of low fundage
  • not working out for months
  • gaining weight
  • fighting with breakouts on face
  • still hoping for balance with birth control & hormones
  • working too much under too many deadlines
  • stupidly eating sugar out of old self-sabotaging patterns
  • friends in crisis
  • heartbroken friend
  • friend with serious health concerns
  • worry
  • worry
  • more worry
  • the holidays fast approaching
  • not feeling “together” enough to meet some of the fella’s friends and canceling last minute and then feeling like an asshole for not being more together

Is that it? I think that’s a comprehensive list of all the things that were swirling around my head when I finally cracked Friday as I drove home from work. After a good cry, supportive friends listening to me and my verbal diarrhea and a long soak in a hot tub, I felt a bit more like myself but incredibly worn out.
Then the weekend came and reminded me that:

  • I have to get sleep. More than 8 hours is preferable.
  • Sugar = No!
  • Working out is good stress release and should be done frequently.
  • Getting flowers at work never gets old.
  • People come through for you.
  • Pizza and beer is a delicious combo.
  • Being loved is humbling and wonderful.
  • Laughter and silliness are good ways to start the day.
  • A man does exist who will make me feel important and cared for and supported. And he might tell me that I don’t have to be strong all the time because he’s there. And I’ll want to believe him.
  • My nephew never ceases to amuse me.
  • A little retail therapy with my sugar mama is good times indeed.
  • The money stuff will work itself out. Plans are being put into action.
  • I can’t forget to put myself first because everything else goes to shit when I do.

Here’s to hoping this week is better than last week.

“I got troubles oh, but not today/’Cause they’re gonna wash away/They’re gonna wash away/And I have sins Lord, but not today/’Cause they’re gonna wash away/They’re gonna wash away. . .” -Wash Away, Joe Purdy


27 thoughts on “Brand New Day

  1. I highly recommend as much Finn time as you can get πŸ™‚ I simply cannot seem to hold on to a bad mood around my favorite little guy: it’s next to impossible!

    Being stressed happens: hopefully it won’t happen as much this week.


  2. Huge hugs from NYC — and seriously, I think you’re strong for admitting you had a hard week. I’m Jane Bottle-it-Up — which is SO unhealthy.

  3. UGH! Everytime you mention food, I get hungry.

    *currently rummaging through fridge in search of pizza and beer*

    Hope your day is bright πŸ™‚

  4. Aww Sizz.
    Making a list, and letting the hot air out of what goes with the fact, makes it alot easier to deal with. Good for you, doing so!:-) Point by point, we’ll get there!

    I know Friday was a rough day, but we have a grand new week here, and opportunties yet to find. It sounds like you are on the right track, and being super proactive about things! Excellent!

    I am trying to view things in a more helpful manner like that too. I realize it is the only way to make progress…if I can stop sabotagueing myself! yikes.
    Like the working-out thing. It is the only way, towards getting my body back. Yet doing it? eh…why do we fight what is good for us?
    I’ll be sending you positive vibes. In seeing you succeed and push forward, it gives me hope, too.

  5. PS. thought of you today, when on VH1 videos they had a Sara Bar-RELL-as segment! πŸ™‚ She seems very cool, just like you.

  6. That new fella of yours sounds like a keeper. You (we, all women) need to let someone else shoulder some of the crap every once and awhile.
    And Finn?? Just about the cutest thing ever πŸ™‚

    Glad you got some sleep, a hot bath, some retail therapy and some pizza.

  7. Yeah – sounds like you’re figuring out a way to prioritize what’s important and be patient for what’s not. It’ll all come together … and it’s fabulous you have a man and friends who support you along the way. That’s worthy of a mini celebration in and of itself!

  8. sounds like the weekend turned out to be just what you needed! and finn? he’s just the cutest thing ever! pizza and beer seems to cure most all things, doesn’t it? as does retail therapy, sillyness, and a cute man who cares for you.

    ps- love that you quotes joe purdy today! i think you’d like kate havnevik’s “new day” as well. i thought of that with this post.

  9. I love getting flowers, even I get them myself, they always cheer me up. Glad you were able to get more sleep and revamp. Ted’s company is also making that pay schedule change starting in January so he’ll only get one paycheck that entire month but then he’ll get three in February. Nice timing…

  10. I hope you get some relief soon (financially). I know how that can eat on you and cause a snowball reactioin with other issues.


  11. Girl…not good enough for the fella’s friends. Please! You’re gorgeous, funny, AND witty. I think you’re just to close to the situation to see how fabulous you are.

  12. “being loved is humbling”. I liked that one a lot. I hope that you get a break soon lady, sounds like you deserve one. (But I have to say that whole ‘change in pay schedule’ is something that I went through before and it is such a pain in the ass- keep going, things will get better).

  13. Looks like we’re having the same bad fortune. It’s not all bad though…at least I don’t have to worry about forgetting my cell phone somewhere. No phone’s been a nice relief.

  14. Yet another awesome self-reflective post. πŸ™‚
    I indulged in a little retail therapy myself today. Feels good to buy something for the most specialist person in your life, doesn’t it?

  15. A man does exist who will make me feel important and cared for and supported. And he might tell me that I don’t have to be strong all the time because he’s there. And I’ll want to believe him.

    Does he happen to have a brother in Philadelphia?

    I am SO SO glad that things are getting better for you – you deserve it more than I can say!

  16. Well remembered, dude. Also, it never says it came to stay- it’s always And So It Came To Pass.

    Yeah, my clicheometer is working JUST FINE. True, though.

  17. I don’t think soak and diarrhea should ever be that close together.

    Speeding ticket? How fast were you going? πŸ™‚

    Hope things are getting better. *hugs*

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