I had an entirely different post planned for today and then I went to delete my blog spam comments and found this:
“Please love yourself, because in you loving yourself you eventually will be loved.”
Who knew spam was so wise?
Gone is the snarky post that came out of an angry place inside me. It was beneath me anyhow. Sometimes people prove you right and it sucks. I’ve been trying to swallow the truth that what happened/is happening doesn’t reflect on ME but rather on other people. I do not have to make it mine. I do not want it.
So I’m leaving it right where I found it and taking off for higher ground.
Because I know that there is someone out there who, when he says he loves me, will actually act like it. In the meantime, I’m going to focus on the good in my life:
My family. My sister’s throw-back-her-head laugh. My brother-in-law’s keen intelligence. My nephews blossoming personality and sense of humor. My Mom’s steadiness. My friends. Jenny Two Times’s unflinching loyalty and willing ear. Supple’s protectiveness and potty humor. Mikey’s biting wit and tender heart. Derro’s unflappable optimism. Bird’s abundant love. RaeRae’s ability to make me laugh. Tomato’s knowing. RayLo’s holding up the mirror. Kaply’s wisdom. My blog friends, so many whom I have never met in person, who show up over and over again to make me believe in the good in people. Two steady, great jobs that I actually enjoy (except the vacuuming). The smell of chlorine on my skin. My health. A big cup of tea. My awesome apartment. My cats. Spring. Flowers and trees blooming. Living in a fantastic city. Traveling to California. An adorable beach house and my thinking tree. Laughter. Surprises. Music. Gaining financial stability. Good books. Poetry. Possibility.