It’s a strange sensation to go to the grocery store and only have three or four sections available based on your limited diet. Produce. Meat. (Some) Dairy. Occasionally the cat food or cleaning supply aisle but clearly those are not edible items (at least not to me ). It makes for quick shopping, I’ll tell you that much.
Today marks week two of my no sugar, no starches, no booze and I gotta tell you, I would give anything for some watermelon and some quinoa. I find it interesting that I’m craving whole grains and fruit and not, say, peanut butter and chocolate ice cream (personal weakness). Maybe something is shifting? I hope so.
The hunger I feel on this elimination “diet” is different than the one when I eat carbs/starches/sugar. This one allows my body to come upon hunger naturally. I eat a lot less. Whereas before I seemed to spiral from sugar high to carb-induced blahs. I have felt tired lately but I think that’s a natural part of the detox.
I’m being super protective of my environment right now. I am not eating out because it’s too hard to control how things are cooked or have bread dangling in front of my carb-hungry belly. It’s just easier for me to bring my snacks and lunches and not meet friends for meals. It makes me realize how much socializing I do around food and booze. But I’m okay with it. There are lots of things we can do instead of shoving fries in our mouth.
I’ve started a list of things I can “reward” myself with when I meet certain goals. Things like: a new outfit for BlogHer or the tattoo I’ve been conceptualizing and dreaming of for years or pin up girl photo shoot (you know, cuz I’ll be feeling super sexy and stuff). I’m not doing this for the gifts but I’d like to mark the milestones with some sort of pomp and circumstance.
Last Tuesday I weighed myself and the scale read 224 lbs. (I figure if Tomato and Snackie can put their weights out there then so can I. GULP!) Today when I weighed myself the scale said 213 lbs. HOLY CRAP! Seriously!? I tried it three times because I had just woken up and wasn’t wearing my glasses but, yes, that’s what it said. Maybe 224 wasn’t my “actual” weight because last week I was, uh, there is no delicate way to say this and I apologize for the TMI – it was that time of the month. A woman tends to pack on some pounds that week.
But still- ELEVEN POUNDS!
I know there is a long road ahead of me but I’m committed to the lifestyle change. It just feels right. And today? Today, I feel awesome.
“Stand up tall and everything will nest in you.” – Mark Nepo