Yesterday I started back on Phase 1 of South Beach because I need a kick-start, something healthy to focus my energy on, and, frankly, a wake up call. So I made myself get on the scale, document my measurements and clear out my fridge and pantry of any off-limits foods.
It isn’t that I’ve fallen off the SB wagon completely. It’s just that I’ve made concessions here and there that have added up to a lifestyle that I’m not comfortable with. Socializing around food and drink can be dangerous for me because I will probably drink and I will probably let something I shouldn’t eat go into my mouth. Bad food abounds when you eat out. And booze is delicious.
It’s been a year now since I’ve been following the SB lifestyle, this way of eating (lean proteins, veggies, whole grains, fruits, very limited alcohol, no refined sugar, no white flour, no processed foods) and it’s hands down the best for me. Everyone has to find their “thing” and South Beach is mine. It just makes sense with how I live and what I enjoy eating. Do I enjoy eating sugar and pasta and french bread with salty butter? You bet I do. But how those things leave me feeling after having cleansed my body of them for months? Is very, very not good. I seriously crash from eating refined sugar. And it is not pretty.
Would I like to lose more weight? Yes. Hell yes. I dropped some 30 lbs in the past year but in the past 6 months have just been hovering at the 5lb gain range. I’ve completely slacked on following an exercise routine. For a while I blamed work and my schedule. But there is no excuse. I prioritize what is important to me and clearly, exercise is not at the top of the list. There’s a bunch of emotional baggage that goes along with that which I discuss ad nauseum with my therapist so you don’t have to listen to it. (You’re welcome.) So I am trying to figure this out. How do I make my life work for me? How do I fit in all my obligations AND work out and find time to cook? Because living a SB lifestyle means you have to cook. A girl cannot live on celery and no sugar peanut butter alone.
The weather is changing which inspires me to get outside. We Seattleites soak up any rays of sun we can get, they are so fleeting. I see walks and hikes and maybe tennis in my future. More pool time and definitely, a yoga routine at the new studio near me. I see making my health a top priority and work/social obligations not having as much weight. Because I want to feel good about my body. I want to be IN my body. It’s hard to describe but. . . I’ve spent most of my life hating my figure and battling against it. It’s difficult to be present inside of something you actively loathe. This is why I spend most of my time inside my own head. But that coping mechanism is not working for me.
I’m going to be blogging more about this because I need to be honest with myself and other people about where I am at, where I am struggling. I’ll also be sharing recipes of good-for-you food when I make something especially good.
I’ve still got a long way to go but at least I see the path. And I’m on it.
I made Spinach Souffle Stuffed Chicken last night. It was yummy!