Internet? I have a confession to make.
Last night marked my return to yoga after a two weeks hiatus.
How did that “happen”?!
Being out of town for two weekends in a row shook up my routine even though I would occasionally roll out my mat and practice at home (or in a hotel on a towel as the case may be- I don’t recommend a towel as it has zero gripping ability). It wasn’t the same as going to class and having my instructor lead me through the poses. Something about being in the studio amongst other yogis pushes me to be better. Is it okay to bring your competitive nature to yoga class? Oops.
Last night I bullied Supple into meeting me for class so I would have someone to be accountable to. No excuses! No letting the fear of half-handstand keep me from my practice! You don’t improve unless you commit to practicing. And frankly, I missed being connected to myself. I feel like I’ve been slipping into self-sabotage mode more and more lately and it concerns me. Yoga deserves a priority placement in my life because the effect of practicing ripples out goodness. I am more centered, more calm, more alive, more committed, more ME when I do so.
I won’t lie. It was difficult bending into some of those poses. I couldn’t hold forearm plank for the entire minute. I got up into half-handstand but didn’t stay up there the entire time. I tried to push the excuses and the negative self-talk away and just focus. It helped that we were dedicating our practice that night to someone. I could keep her in my mind and when I struggled, the image of her could encourage me. Because she’s someone who is strong, positive and true. Someone I admire. Someone who faces adversity with a sense of humor. Someone who despite having crappy kidneys and arthritis at such a young age, lives life fully and loves big. Yep, I dedicated my practice to one of my dearest friends, the infamous Kaply. If I were in Kaply’s place, I highly doubt I would handle it with such grace. (Love you, Kap.)
I am blessed to be able to move my body every day. To practice yoga. To be healthy. I don’t honor that enough.
What or whom do you need to honor today?