Every day this week I have woken up and thought, “I should blog.” And then promptly not blogged.
Life is a bit of a wedding whirlwind right now as you can imagine. My to do list is very detailed and hopefully a lot of the tasks will be crossed off after this coming weekend. I have some lovely girlfriends coming over tomorrow to help with the favors and decoration making which should be productive but also a lot of fun. Mr. Darcy and I have to get down to business writing our vows and helping Jenny Two Times flesh out the ceremony. That is the most important part, right? That’s probably why I am avoiding it.
I keep telling myself that I have to “get in a good mood” before I can work on the ceremony pieces and then I get even more mad at myself when I can’t seem to relax. The fact that I would think I could relax now during the most stressful 6 months of my life when I actually am NEVER relaxed is all kinds of ridiculous. I set very high expectations for myself but this is beyond logic. So after many freak outs and breakdowns (thanks to Mr. Darcy for always being supportive), I went to acupuncture and felt 100% more calm. I will return every week until the wedding because I need needles stuck strategically in my body to make me calm down apparently. Whatever works I say. Because I will not be a wreck on the day of my wedding. That is not my dream.
I just wanted to check in and say hi, I’m alive, I’m getting through it.