Welcome to the world of Sugar-Free Sizzle where our motto is: Sometimes it’s got to get ugly before it gets pretty.
Yes folks, you’re looking at week two of no refined sugar. I did this before two years ago with good results though back then it was for emotional reasons that I quit the white stuff. During the months I was off sugar I had great results- being better able to tell when I was hungry/full, less mood swings, and more energy. So for the next two weeks I am focusing on no booze, no sugars, no starches. I’m resetting my body and mind. I hesitate in sharing my “diet” (I hate that word and really what I am doing is just focusing on eating more of the things that are better for me and pretending that celery tastes just like french fries (stating the obvious: it does not) and sugar-free pudding cups are delicious (overstatement)) because so often this is where people start to chime in. Well meaning people who start to pick apart my plan and then I start to feel confused and guarded and frustrated. Let’s just avoid that and skip the part where you give me tips and I promise this will not become a body image obsessive blog.
I have started setting some goals for myself. It’s important to keep your eyes on the prize. Here’s what I’ve come up with so far:
- To wear a tank top in public. (I have never done this because I am embarrassed about the size of my arms.)
- To fit comfortably in an airplane seat. (Might seem simple but they keep making the damn seats smaller and smaller. And as paranoid as this may sound, I am desperately afraid of being pulled aside and told I need to buy another seat even though I realize I am not actually that big.)
- To not get winded climbing the stairs of my apartment building.
- To be able to keep up with my nephew who is apparently the second coming of the Energizer Bunny or the next Beckham.
- To take a dance class without fear of ridicule.
- To not feel my stomach touching the tops of my thighs when I sit.
- To walk into a “regular” store and buy clothes off the rack. (Not be forced to shop in basement sections of department stores, specialty stores or “exclusively on line.”)
- To not cringe at the thought of a full length photo being taken of me or to hide behind other people when said photo is taken or to delete any evidence that I have a body past my torso. (Ahem!)
- To have less pain in my knees.
- To walk into a room of strangers without being consumed by thoughts of rejection based on my size.
- To change in the locker room without using the private dressing rooms.
- To match who I feel like I am inside with who I am on the outside. (Inside I am: fierce, fashionable, sexy, confident and powerful. Watch out!)
My first weight loss goal is to lose 20 lbs before my friend’s wedding in August. I’ll keep you posted on my progress because, well, that’s what I do. I share.